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The eye never lies... unfortunately

Posted Wednesday, February 22, 2012, at 10:22 AM

If there was one thing that I could really change about myself it would be this aging thing that seems to be happening whether I want it to or not!

It really just hit me the other day when I had some help discovering Facebook Video Chat. It was so exciting, being able to actually see my kids and grand-kids while chatting away without poking at a keyboard and wondering if I had misspelled a word or not. It was amazing...well until I saw my own mug on the computer. One good thing is the fact that I was using my small notebook computer, I probably would have freaked even more so if my face were larger than life. There staring back at me while waiting for one of my daughters to accept my invitation was this wrinkled and in my opinion not so young looking face.

I was embarrassed and disturbed by this revelation that what I see in the mirror every day apparently is not what everyone else is seeing when they see me. I wonder who it was that was messing with my mirror? Who had pasted this face that I had been wearing for a number of years smack dab on to my mirror; no wonder my favorite mirror is my favorite!

Just like that it dawned on me that when a certain 6 year old granddaughter calls me "old lady" she calls it as it is. I always thought that she was teasing me because of my age. She asks me how old I am and of course I tell her, nothing to hide here. Thinking back I guess that when I was that age 52 was old too. Little did I know that she may be calling me old because I really do look like the stereotypical grandma!

I have the wrinkles and the jowls, come to think of it I am not as agile as I once was either. Instead of jumping freely to sit on a stool, I have to stop and think about it and slowly maneuver my body up and once I get up there...I stay until it's time to get off and stay off. I have a few gray hairs that seem to peep out shortly following a hair-coloring session...stubborn silver things anyway. My guess is that there are a few other items that I fail to see on a daily basis that she and probably others see that put me into that old lady looking category. What am I going to do?

In all reality it is better to age than not; if you get my drift, and if I guess I feel like a 40 year old and not a 50-something, that is all that matters...right?

Who am I kidding, it does bother me that this person that I saw on my computer screen is the very same person that stares back at me in the mirror every single day, day after day, month after month, year after year is not the same young person that I once was. It's just going to take a bit to get used to the fact that I am going from a rather stunning young woman to a modestly attractive mature woman I guess.

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Trudy J. Schroeder
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