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Marrying off my 'baby'

Posted Monday, January 24, 2011, at 4:02 PM

Planning the final wedding of my female offspring has had my emotions going haywire!

I thoroughly enjoy planning weddings. There is so much to do, but to watch as visions come together into a beautiful ceremony and reception is the best feeling ever. I am such a sap for weddings anyway, but to be a part of such a memorable occasion involving my own children means so much more.

The dress has been purchased, the bridesmaid dresses have been ordered, flower girl dresses bought, finding flowers and decor are in full swing. Shower is scheduled, invitation ideas are flourishing... it is all coming together quite nicely. The only problem is; I am having severe cases of mental breakdowns. It isn't because of the cost (well who am I kidding, there are things being discussed that have me wondering who would spend hard earned money on things like that, but none-the-less, Robyn will get what she wants because it is all about the bride, and spouse-to-be Patrick is fully aware of that!)

I think what has me so emotional is that this is my baby. I gave birth to four daughters that have turned out to be such kind and compassionate young ladies and I am so close to each and every one of them. The trouble is that I am not ready to relinquish the responsibilities of coddling my youngest child yet.

The reality of knowing that my baby will be married and someone other than myself will have all rights to knowing her highs and lows is not settling very well. There is this other person that is tearing from me the only thing that I consider keeping me young. Someone other than her mama that she will turn to for comfort and strength just seems wrong. Why is this so much harder than the others? I think that perhaps it is that Robyn and I have a special relationship because we have spent more one on one time together because of the fact that the others were already married and gone. We spent many nights together watching American Idol, working at Dairy Queen together, chatting about each others' lives - and let us not forget, shopping.

Even though Robyn has been out of the house and on her own for a few years, and she doesn't rely on me like she used to, the thought of her relying on someone else has me sad, and I don't know why... I love Patrick and I know in my heart that he is indeed her Knight in Shining Whatever, but dang this total separation thing has this mama all crazed out. The reality had sunk in just the other day while making the 40 minute trek to work. I had heard the new Train song, "Marry Me" and I totally broke down. If this is a sign of what is yet to come prior to the actual wedding date, we won't have to worry about Bridezilla... Mamazilla will be ten times worse!

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